Wow! What a journey thus far! Week 6 finds me feeling rather grumpy, behind schedule and recognizing the all-too-familiar. I am heavily challenged this week and my frustration plants me dead-center on the battleground for my inner self. It seems I am taking some fire from my old blueprint.
Formerly this site was no battle ground at all. It was merely a mental field; quiet, sublime and neutral. I always landed in it once I grew tired of the effort and fearful of defeat along whatever path I had been on. From here I have always advanced down the old warn, well-trodden path of "same old mediocrity, different day," my fear of another failure always seemingly met. As Haanel has expressed, we form a habit of failure if we do not complete what we set out to do.
All my life I have begun many processes of varying subjects, with a subconscious assumption of failure as the probable outcome. I recognize this largely results from ancestral aspects of my old blueprint coupled with lifelong habits that supported them. While one side of my ancestry seemed to maintain expectations and acceptance of mediocrity to descend through the generations, the other esteemed hollow symbols of success which I refused to embrace. Failure seemingly resulted as my habit, my functional belief before I even began anything!
So that formerly tranquil field of mediocrity is now drawing fire, and it's ok! Anything worth possessing is surely worth fighting for! This MKE journey makes it quite a simple task. Follow through; conduct the activities when directed, Do it mindfully! But it is not always easy! Stay true and honest with oneself; guard the thoughts so the conscious mind remains a worthy gatekeeper of the subconscious; get uncomfortable and do it anyway!
That fine estate is mine and I possess and cherish it! There is nothing greater.
No neglect, excuses, servitude, apathy, unbelief, laziness or melancholy; and definitely no ragged old recycled hand-me-down blueprint is going to keep me from it!