Once I learned of the Master Key Experience, I have yearned for the program with great expectations. Far be it from my CONSCIOUS assessment throughout that time, that by the second week I would already be reaping the benefits and realizing dynamic changes in the way I respond to the world without! In these mere two weeks, I have:
- had amazing conversations with my daughter;
- realized increased levels of motivation to get things done;
- DONE things I typically have waited for help to do, knowing previously I would lose patience too quickly or have fear of not completing PERFECTLY (perfection paralysis, anyone?);
- become more creative with meal preparation;
- found amazing patience with things I've been known to have a short fuse for;
- begun learning to FEEL, without fear of allowing myself to really FEEL.
This is but a condensed list and barely at the midpoint of the second week! If this was all I reaped from MKE, it would be an enormous change! Yet I have 24 weeks to go, let alone the rest of a life with which to practice all I learn. WOW!
In the past few years, I learned much about my true state of being; that I truly lacked self-love, confidence or a healthy inner world. I learned that all those things I thought I possessed were only anchored to my achievements in physical fitness. I was relying on the cement for my strength as I now know it to be. Once that was all ripped from me, by way of my body beginning to fail to respond to my efforts, all the feelings I had for myself before returned, without hesitation and with a vengeance.
Nothing made sense. I eliminated possible irritants from my diet and I gained weight. I worked out more and I gained weight. I worked out less and I gained weight. The only absolute ever resulting was, ~say it with me~, I GAINED WEIGHT! This is all very current in my cement. I weigh more now than I have in fifteen years, never mind that I have militantly worked and monitored my diet closely. Heck, I even just ran a 5K, the first in a long time, and placed 6th in my age bracket. Believe me when I say there have been lots of tears throughout this time of trying to sort it all out, gaining weight all the way.
Thankfully my mind is changing and I know with all that I am, that the healing of my inner world will chisel all that needless cement away; first in my thought world, but quickly in my physical world as well. With the help of these truths with which we are saturating our world within, I don't "hope this will help me reverse these physical issues"; I WILL reverse these issues and, clearly, that will be but one benefit amongst many, MYRIAD and life-changing benefits of this journey! Onward and outward!