"We cannot escape from the pictures we incessantly photograph on the mind, and this photography of erroneous conceptions is exactly what is being done by use of words, when we use any form of langage which is not identified with our welfare." -Haanel 15:15
I could spend a full six months with this one precept. It is truly amazing to look back over recent years and realize that less than ideal words held refuge in the subconcnscious even when I thought my path had transcended some age-old struggles. I had overcome a very damaging relationship, brought my body to the best level of fitness I had ever had, even developed a new relationship out of the blue. I was flying high on how my life had transformed. So what did I lack? At the time, I would emphatically responded, "Nothing! Nothing at all." And then…
My world caved in. And then other bits caved in further. And finally to cap it all off, my body decided to hit the rewind button and throttle me back to days of low self-confidence. Everything, and I mean EVERYTHING that I once struggled with and believed to be history, returned. I would sit in front of my mirror, putting on my makeup, and then bust into tears, negating the whole point, while my inner voice was saying, "Why? You're just putting lipstick on a pig!" It's tough to admit and tougher to believe that these words would eminate from within me to myself. But they did!
Now I know how raw and transparent these things are to write and therefore to read. However, this transparency brings to the surface the demand to get the greatest form of architecture in order. Thank goodness for the Master Key Experience. It literally gave my inner mesages great pause when I needed it most. When I previously thought I was in a great place, I was actually building my inner world completely on the outer and temporary manifestations.
"Words may become mental places that will live forever, or they may become shacks which the first breeze will carry away." -Haanel 15:22
Just like the proverbial house built on sand, my inner world immediately followed my outer world, right out to sea! Everything was swept away as life's storms unsettled it all. I had no foundation anchored in bedrock. Just as when one visits family after 20 years and it feels like no time has past, my self-deprecation, insecurity, and perceived insignificance tromped dirt right into my living space and plopped down on the couch of my heart and mind, and it felt as if we had only been apart for an hour.
Nothing demonstrates the importance of getting the thought life right than experience. Just as the Universe has a way of doing, the Master Key Experience enveloped me at just the right moment of my life. Desperate to rebuild my inner home with solid materials that will not crush, rust, spoil, rot or drift away! Quality takes time to build, and I am in it for as long as it takes!