MKE Week 7- Trusting My Own Abilities: A Tough Habit To Break!

Here I am in week 7, thinking AGAIN about whether my Definite Major Purpose resonates with me. It was said to me a few weeks ago, that being indecisive… IS a decision! I’m also recognizing the level at which I am still choreographing my outcomes by my own limited knowledge of resources.

My challenge is found in evaluating what I have written. Once doing so, I am recognizing that I am STILL writing what I want while also including how I think… I… will be able to make it happen. Once again, I am relying ONLY on what I can conceive, which makes any new and different outcome unlikely.

Here’s an example: I was confident in writing that, beginning before Dec. 1st, I am regularly receiving $6000 per month from MY endeavors. Here’s some transparent honesty-with you and myself. In my thinking, it was easy to have confidence in attaining this goal, even beginning so soon. Incidentally I own an art gallery and it’s officially the holiday shopping season!

Well, the Universe is shaking up my habitual mediocre logic-making; taking my conception of possibilities and reminding me that it’s only a possibility, definitely generated by my limited conception of what I see. And so far, this month has been absolutely in the toilet for sales! While this will change as the month progresses, the main point I wish to make here is that, if I try to conceive of all the ways in which my goals and outcomes will be reached, I am limiting myself to only what I can see!

So then what? Should I decide it was silly of me to think I could perfect this conception, in the words of Tesla, based on my same faulty reasoning that hasn’t worked before? HECK YES! I’m still just building by my age-old blueprint that created the wobbly bridge I’m standing on.

There are two things I am standing on now instead: going back to spending more attention on my design plans (I.e. my quiet contemplation or sit) and clearing all the things that are present in my DMP that reflect my limited thinking! Back to the drawing board, I go.


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Rebecca Ann

I'm a recovering perfectionist cultivating joy, adventure and passion by observing and learning from and through my varying environments. I live unapologetically, yet humble; adventurously yet calculating of risks; creatively while forever working to enlarge my patience to continuously learn new things, within and without.

3 thoughts on “MKE Week 7- Trusting My Own Abilities: A Tough Habit To Break!”

  1. “While this will change as the month progresses…”–I was impressed with the positivity in your statement–no doubt in your mind–way to direct subby! 🙂 Good point that we limit our subby when only allowing it to use the paths we can see. Enjoyed the images you chose for this post–they were great and tied in well. I think you’re standing on very firm footing now–appreciate you sharing these insights! 🙂

  2. This is so very transparent and wonderfully encouraging!!! Bravo! Your observation about yourself and persevering forward are inspirational!!! Thank you so much for your brutal honesty!!!

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