Oh my! This has been a week. My old blueprint has presented pretty strongly, joined by other naturally unnatural factors in my physiology, a 5-day vacation (AKA 5 days away from business and stress, care of my beloved partner), a sense of falling behind… and so many other details.
My emotions have been riding shotgun, yelling at me from the adjacent seat- “STOP!!! This is not working! You’re silly to think things will change! What kind of idiot thinks such great things can come out of nowhere? How would so many accomplishments manifest from nothing?”
I like to refer to this internal and predictable monologue as, “the committee”, because it has been with me all my memorable life. You see? A committee is, by definition, a subordinate organization generally used to explore matters in greater detail. My committee has been closely collaborating with my lifelong responses, what we refer to in the Master Key Experience as our “old blueprint”, and it is VERY concerned with its job security these days.
But I admit it: I’ve been listening. I was drinking the Kool-Aid. I continue to ward off my little committee pest in the passenger seat, moment by moment. They’re just a little egotistical, parasitical snitch anyway.
Yes, I’m behind, working on catching up. Indeed some external conditions don’t seem to be supporting my passions, dreams and purposeful intent. I’m force-feeding belief in my Definite Major Purpose at those moments when I am not FEELING it. I’m trusting that my Belief Appetite continues to grow with my persistent care-giving, supported by so many others who are somewhere along their similar paths.
To the committee: The Pink Slips are on their way! It’s the holiday season, and I thought it only fair to give you a heads-up.