We are past the midpoint of week 16, and I am preparing for a journey. A journey by plane. A journey to the unknown. A journey that conjures memories of when I first jumped from a perfectly good airplane at 15,000 feet. You may know what I'm talking about; that point after gawking out the window at the shadow of the rapid ascent of the tiny single engine plane you inhabit, indicated by the quick shrinking of that shadow against barren desert below. Sweaty palms. Adrenaline pump valve fully open. Finally my time to sit on the ledge. And. Fall.
When the plane begins accelerating down the runway I could still chicken out, maybe. But sitting on the ledge, tied to another who controls everything? Well, it's rather settled then.
Early tomorrow I fly out to San Diego, fulfilling the impassioned desire of my lovely and brilliant daughter for the purpose of attending a leadership program that will convene on several weekends through May. Here's what I've learned. It is life-changing IF you choose to challenge all that you are by staying committed to the end. It will gain intensity with each session. I will need to have with me the thoughtful and beautiful-to-me handkerchief my daughter gave me in a beautifully wrapped box. The sessions begin soon after I check in at the hotel. Snack and meal opportunities can be tough to coordinate. Ah, I got this one! Therefore, I'm backpacking in San Diego, right beside a marina with a multi-million dollar inventory of yachts. Have coffee maker, have hot water, have hot oatmeal and soups!
A bucket list item for me is hiking the Pacific Crest Trail and, in ways, I feel like I'm embarking on that. Perhaps it's partly due to heading to the right stepping-off-the-ledge-from-the-civilized-world point for the PCT. I don't know. Perhaps it's the amount of unknowns I'm facing. I don't know what the content of this endeavor really holds, but I do know I need an industrial strength tissue! Let's call this my mental PCT.
One thing that surely is a "known" for me; I feel far more prepared and better equipped for this journey having experienced the Master Key. And this brings me to thoughts of my daughter. With fewer years on this earth and different experiences, I am infinitely awestruck, just as I have been so many times, by her strength, courage and drive to embark upon and see this program through to the conclusion. There were numerous individuals who did not do as she did. As I prepare for these unknowns, I think of her, knowing I will persist and I will succeed. If I had to get up on a stage and sing, which is probably my biggest fear, though I have no problem public speaking, I would do it. If I had to ride a roller coaster that does loops, which I hate, I would do it. No matter what this journey brings, I WILL DO IT. There are so many reasons for myself that I will do it. But if I chickened out of every last one of them, I WILL DO IT. For her. I can't think of a better ledge to be on at this moment!
"…Natural laws work in a perfectly natural and harmomious manner; everything seems to 'just happen'". (Haanel 16:31)
I am in the period of reconstruction according to part sixteen's introduction. You may do the math. And I see these characteristics of 16:31 happening all around me. That I am packing and preparing for this journey to begin tomorrow is testimony to this. Stay tuned!